a prayer.

i want someone to hold tight. deny the flesh

i want someone to complete me. deny the flesh

i want someone to love me. deny the flesh

i want. deny the flesh

wants are no longer something i will choose to have. i want to be free of wants and survive off of need. i want to starve so i can be abundantly thankful for bread. i want to be close to death so i can be abundantly thankful for life. i want to find death so that i can live in joy. i want to only want what he wants. i want to only do what he does. i want to be so desperate for him that i cannot take the next breathe without feeling him near.

"lord make me an instrument of your peace. where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there in injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy. O lord grant that i may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. for it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen."

i want to lay down my selfish intentions to only see yours.

i want to be humbled.

may you, by your grace make it so.